I’m honestly scared. I don’t want this to end just like that. I was really ready to sell my ass off for money for this project. I’m honestly really scared. I’m not prepared to face rejection. I’m not prepared to return to the internship pool. I’m not prepared to go for the presentation.
I feel that we are made more than this, but I just can’t see how to explain it to you. We’re obviously never given the opportunity to handle such projects of such scale in our lives.
It’s funny, how much I wanted to prove myself over the years, because I thought I’m made more than this. Well, many doors closed and yet, I’m still finding that door that will open. If this door closes, haha, I don’t know if anymore will open in awhile. I want to make my mark, I want to have something to call my own, but I’ve yet to really get it, even though I fight so hard for it.